sâmbătă, 20 februarie 2010

Time to pretend...

This is our decision, to live fast and die young.
We've got the vision, now let's have some fun.

Yeah, it's overwhelming, but what else can we do.
Get jobs in offices, and wake up for the morning commute.

Forget about our mothers and our friends
We're fated to pretend
To pretend
We're fated to pretend
To pretend

                     I'll miss the playgrounds and the animals and digging up worms
                   I'll miss the comfort of my mother and the weight of the world
                 I'll miss my sister, miss my father, miss my dog and my home
                              Yeah, I'll miss the boredom and the freedom and the time spent alone.

There's really nothing, nothing we can do
Love must be forgotten, life can always start up anew.
The models will have children, we'll get a divorce
We'll find some more models, everything must run it's course.

We're fated to pretend
To pretend

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Photographer: me
Models: George T. , Razvan M., Costina, me

luni, 15 februarie 2010

Surveying the mad world

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very mad world ... mad world
Enlarging your world
Mad world 

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Photographer: me
Model: George T.

vineri, 12 februarie 2010

very bad sex...

From the series: Normal life for an UPB student
Episode: too many to count.... Very bad sex
Main characters: Me, Bia, Eve...
Director: God
OST: Rolling Stones- I can't get no satisfaction

What a normal student does in session, especially when the next day, at 8 am is taking a big exam??? The big majority is sleeping, eating, studying, but us.....:
Late 11th  February night, after a session of showing lousy pictures to Darky I've decided to study few more things for the shitty exam... My sweet tired and drained brain decided to punish me, at 2am with a "deep" sleep. After a resting and sweet night, full of non-concerns ( ya sure..) I've decided to woke, as a studious and working girl at 8.30 am. Full of energy, I took a shower, I ate... daily habits... After 3 hours on mint rubbing I've decided to go to the wonderful faculty, to study harddddd, meanwhile Bia called me, very carried away by the fact that we're going to the mountainside in the weekend. She seemed happy, she made me feel good, but, the " optimistic" biatch inside me, was, as usual a little bit skeptical, out of the blue.

Finally i left my "sweet" house and went to the faculty...

Arrived there, i found that there's no network connections... Usual and normal stuff for a technical environment, especially in an Electronics, Telecommunications and Information Technology faculty... But it's okay i said, we're a herd of engineers living in a place where there's no heat, light sources, power sources, etc. No need to complain, "look at the bright side: you'll study harder" I've said. So I did.

Meanwhile, someone closed the door from the class where i was. Well nothing special here, but there is no  door handle on the interior, and the only way to open the door is to enter the room... So... we're stuck about 40 min, where an urgent call of nature was playing with me...Funny, yah...

In this time, giant icicles is falling right in the front of the door from the entrance in za mighty faculty...I shouldn't mention the "skating-rink" from the campus...YEs dear faculty staff... we love you too...10x for providing us security, good conditions and great level of education...

Suddenly i felt sick....Hmm, pms is gone, well it supposed to be like that, because i;m going to the mountains..why i should feel good????No one of my friends or the people studying in that room had an lousy, damn nurofen...

Night comes, so my crazy girls arrived to the mighty "JEG" for a coffee break. We talk, we laugh, we talk... Eve decided not to go the exam, because of that ferocious male of her, Bia said that she had problems with the washing machine, etc..normal stuff.... At one time, Eve said that she had weird dreams about Laura and Bia, as usually i couldn't abstain myself and I've tried to interpret the dreams, saying that the girls we'll be upset with something....

At 11pm we decided to finally go home, not before going to hall to take some shits from there. We took Alex with us. At11.15 we arrived at the parking area, trying to get out of there. As usual, the parking sense of Bia helped us a lot, but in fact she did it well this time, the others cars blocked the exit...Hmm what to do what to do?? The ground is covered with wet snow.... a lot of snow...We decided to risk and go on the other exit(full of snow)... AAAAnd We're STUCK...HEEEEEELLLL YAAAA...Go and push the car: 3 pisi and one dude, the pisi showed their muscles and pushed the car, and Alex was trying to drive it....After some laughter, helping calls (poor Cretzu'), pushing harder, harder,IOOI...we did it, But the exit was still blocked....What should we do???

After turning on the alarm of the car that blocked the exit, the owner came and solved the problem.... We succeeded to exit from the parking area....Good..Now you may say that we're done....NOOOOOOOOOOOOO....Not in the deepest thoughts....
The shield of the car is broken..FUCK.....We borrow another car...Bia" OH, I'm living my life's drama...", i couldn't say anything to her, because she was right....
We're both Pisces and it seems that happiness is not our word...I was trying to be optimistic till the end...We're going back home with the borrowed car, meanwhile my grandma calls and tells me that is a power failure and i can't enter the block...ha ha ha ha ha.....
In her "normal" mind she said to me: come home, and wait for the power to come back in the front of the building....I said: " no, i;m going back to the faculty....", She said: " And where you'll sleep, are there girls..." .And i wanted to fuck her brains out in that moment...she rather see me like a poor dog sitting in the freezing night in the front of the building than going to faculty..

 Yes I;M GONNA FUCK EVERYBODY...happy now?

Buuut, I was still optimistic and i hoped till the end that the power will come back until we're driven Alex...And it did....

Now, is 3am and I'm studying hard...in 2hours i have to wake up..I so don't give a fuck about it...anyway i don't like what I'm attending right now....

Conclusions: Today it was like having sex with a guy that has no idea what is he doing, or who is extremely boring, or who while he fuckes you he talks about the exes, or his cookie is getting "harder"....

Another chapter closed from the saga: How to be fucked badly in three simple steps....*

*Steps: 1. Attend to UPB
             2. Study in vain
             3. Have "special " teachers....

Sorry for being so boring, i suck badly at telling stories...

luni, 8 februarie 2010

Autoportret intr-o oglinda sparta

Printre franturi de timp, am reusit sa termin de citit o carte, o biografie absolut geniala. Ca atare, am simtit nevoia sa-i aduc d-lui Octavian Paler un mic omagiu si sa transpun cateva pasaje din carte in fotografii. Din pacate, nu au iesit extraordinar, dar mi-am dat toata silinta... 
" ... memoria mea seamana cu o oglinda sparta, care-mi restituie numai franturi de viata..."

" Exista un singur "azi", restul e trecut. Oglinda sparta in cioburile careia, privind prea insistent, risc sa pun in pericol intregul...." 


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Photographer: Alex B.
Idea, edits: me
Brushes: from the http://www.photoshopbrushes.com/brushes.htm

vineri, 5 februarie 2010

spider web

katie melua - spider's web

'cause the line between
Wrong and right
Is the width of a thread from a spider's web
The piano keys are black and white
But they sound like a million colors in your mind

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Photographer: me
Very old pic
Letter to Mah

I am not going to say this twice, so you better listen and listen well…I don’t like you…at all …!!!

in fact i should very much like to say..

In fact, I hate you a great deal because you keep popping into my mind, all the wrong moments … who gives you this right I do not know…for i do not remember having granted you such a privilege… you are in fact invading my privacy, which is a sort of a crime really …so, unless you want me to take legal action, I advise you to stop this at once…

I also want you to know I do not appreciate the fact all these other feelings, hopes and expectations that come along with you, disturbing my mood and all…it is indeed too much…what do you expect me to do: welcome them all, as if I were a summer resort or something…

I refuse to acknowledge and always think the other way around…and yet, in a rather unexplainable manner, you happen to be in my thoughts, more often than I believe you deserve to be…My point being, get some essence or get lost! Get it!

Anyways, what I am saying is that, given the circumstances, your conduct is outrageous… I don’t know you nor do I want to… so, please consider my disapproval and reconsider your actions… there is a lot of risk in what you’re doing … which you are not even aware of, perhaps… but I am… since I am more at risk than you are, I am sure – you see, i am of a rather dreamy disposition – in case you wondered.

I am thus writing in order for you to become acquainted with these feelings of mine… and mind your own business… if you will?!!!!

Yours faithfully,


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luni, 1 februarie 2010

At the cemetery gates

The reverend he turned to me
Without a tear in his eyes
It's nothing new for him to see
I didn't ask him why
I will remember
The love our souls had
Sworn to make
Now I watch the falling rain
All my mind can see
Now is your (face)

Well I guess You took my youth
I gave it all away
Like the birth of a New-found joy
This love would end in rage
And when she died
I couldn't cry
The pride within my soul
You left me incomplete
All alone as the
Memories now unfold

Believe the word
I will unlock my door
And pass the
Cemetery gates...

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Photographer of un-focused shitty pics: me
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